Sigh, I am still on my bumming days. When will this ever end? It's so hard to find someone who will join you in your lousy hours of thinking of something to do. Yeah there could be a lot of things to do out there but then there are so many things that would hinder you too. omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg my head is so full of things to think about yet it seems so emptyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!! Learn this learn that! Having all these weird dreams every night. They just won't STOP! I just want a relaxing dreamless sleep. I do spend hours sleeping but instead of having a good rest, it's more stressful than being awake. Sometimes, I want to stay up but my eyes just give up on me. There goes my journey into the wilderness of dreams. Dreams that I do not really remember when I wake up. I need a new HOBBY! A new spark of interest perhaps.
I started reading Paulo Coelho's Veronika Decides To Die and man, the first few chapters were so depressing. The story is somewhat similar to Girl Interrupted. Oh my, have I gone crazy! Hahahaha
What's a typical day?
Wake up at 4:30 then sleep again after 10-15 minutes, wake up at 7 am then sleep again after a few minutes, wake up at 10 am and watch "The Nanny" for an hour and then eat BRUNCH. Spend an hour or two surfing the channels on television hoping to find a good movie to watch, doze off to sleep until someone calls me up. Gawd, bumming really dulls the senses! Wishful thinking that he goes off from work early so we can talk but I'm not always lucky all the time. I now easily get tired / bored surfing the web because there's nothing new ~_~ .
Sharing my sentiments with bading friends like Shawie and Titay! Cheers to us bummers! Darn I miss you guys!
Haha! Cheers to us bums! Ako naman matutulog ng 2 am tapos gigising ng 11:30 am--yak! Hindi pa ako nananaginip kahit isa sa mahabang pagtulog na iyon--hmm... wanna trade?... Joke! :-p
I am generally a happy person. Really! How come I'm having depression staying at home?
Ginigiba na ang bahay namin. Tuwing nakikita ko ang mga gamit namin sa bahay na sobrang gulo ngayon pag uwi ko, nagugulo din utak ko. May kapitbahay pa kaming praning. If I had the money, I would find my own place to live siguro. Just for a change, I want to try living on my own. Kahit for a week lang. Or go to a province... away from what I see everyday. Gusto ko magbakasyon, hindi sa bahay namin! Tapos parang dinaanan pa to ng bagyo. Ni wala kong kwarto matambayan na matino. Pag invite naman ako ni ney sa bahay nila, nahihiya naman ako... kahit na mas gumagaan pakiramdam ko dun sa kanila, nahihiya pa rin ako. hayyyyyyyyyy what to do what to do? I want to go road tripping! I wanna ride a monstrous amusement park ride! O kaya tumunganga sa harap ng dagat. I am not getting enough sleep these past few days. I mostly get sleepy, sleep for an hour or two and wakes up. Goin back to sleep would take around 30 mins or so. When I finally fall into deep sleep, there goes the hammers, shovels, steel bars! Sobrang sakit sa ulo! Mag iisang linggo na tong ganito. Bawal magreklamo. Ang arte arte ko daw. Naman! Give me a break! Where's my summer vacation!? Where are my night-outs? Plus, I goin to be dead broke! Well, not really broke but I'm saving money because I need to save 50,000 php this year. That's an aspiration in my golden aspirations list.
Wala na naman akong mata, hirap na hirap akong dumilat. Malaki na eyebags ko, maga pa ngayon. I'm tired. Kaw ba naman umiyak iyak ng apat na oras eh. Ngayon lang ako nakapahinga. Wala na kasi nagtratrabaho. Hindi na ko naiirita masyado. Buti na lang yung kapitbahay namin hindi nagpapatugtog ngayon. Twisted ang utak ko ngayon. Sorry sa lahat ng napagdiskitahan ko.
Haha! Cheers to us bums! Ako naman matutulog ng 2 am tapos gigising ng 11:30 am--yak! Hindi pa ako nananaginip kahit isa sa mahabang pagtulog na iyon--hmm... wanna trade?... Joke! :-p